I tend to keep these posts light and fun, usually something about Sean. Anyway, I feel I should share because well, i just should. My dad has cancer and has for quite some time. His health has taken a dramatic turn for the worse and we are all expecting the inevitable soon. It's been a roller coaster these past few weeks. He is currently in the ICU in Houston. My mom is by his side almost all the time. She runs home to eat, shower, or do house chores, but other than that she's with my dad, even sleeps there. Whether it be a lazy boy type chair or a cruddy cot. The doctors started talking to her about plans and arrangements for when he dies. It threw her for a loop because previously the plan was to let him gain strength back and proceed with removing the tumor. We knew it couldn't be completely cured, but that removing the tumor would restore some health, buy some time. The doctor told her this shaking news is a pretty blunt, tell you like it is doctor. The previous doctors were optimistic. Maybe it's a good thing that he not hide anything, so that we know just how serious and this is. How he could die any day. He was on a ton of meds and had some infections and had to get over the infections before even thinking about surgery. Well he got an infection in his throat and was unable to keep food down, even water. He lost a ton of weight and was basically malnourished. He became very weak, can't even feed himself . My mom feeds him. The throat infection is gone and he can now eat maybe a few spoonfuls of soup a day. Docs have said he could live one more day or many years. It's just so unknown with cancer. My take is that it's progressively shutting his body down. So now we are at the point of just making him comfortable. He sleeps most the day (20hrs) and anytime he wakes he asks for pain medicine.I think my mom has already accepted his fate. She knows it is in Gods hands. She said she is so relieved that she doesn't have to worry about his salvation. He loved Christ and knew the sacrifice Christ made to cover our sins, to allow us a relationship with God and to have hope in Heaven. I really don't know what to say except prayers are coveted. Prayers for comfort for my dad and prayers for my mother. She will have to make a lot of tough decisions and obviously hates to see him suffer. I have so many emotions going on at once i don't even know where to start or what to share. But I just want my friends to know what's going on and that I'd appreciate your prayers.
I am so sorry Christi! I wish I knew what to say to comfort you. I will be praying for you and your family that God will comfort you in this extremely difficult time.
ReplyDeleteChrisi, I am just now getting to this post, but my heart is just aching for your family. I know you have the assurance of his future with Christ, but that doesn't take away the sting of knowing that you are losing your Daddy. I can't imagine. My prayers are with you and your family.
ReplyDeleteSo sorry to hear this, cancer is an awful awful thing. We will be praying for you, your dad, and family as we know this is such a hard thing to go through. God's peace and comfort to you all during this time.
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